20 November 2009

I love you

Like the rain that cools and quenches the earth
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Like the gentle morning sun that rises each day
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Like the early birds that sing their happy little songs
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Like the smiling guys making breakfast tacos every single day
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Like the barista girls at the off-brand coffee shop - wink, wink
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Like the cooling of the breeze at the first change of the season
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Like the feeling of that breeze flopping my hair because I don't care
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Like the 3rd mile of a short 5 mile run
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Like the kids laughing on their way to kindergarten - they have no cares
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Like, liking as it turns into love
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Yeah...there's always more...
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09 November 2009









Trending

Not sure I've ever really believed that all things happen for an explainable reason, but at the same time I don't believe that anything is completely random, either. Parts of those beliefs fly in the face of physics as we know it...
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I do look for trending...everywhere. My sleeping trend seems to be moving toward everyone's death. I'm quite tired of it now and even postpone getting into bed for fear of witnessing who's going next.... Last night she was another unknown who seemed to be an acquaintance - maybe someone from one of my classes.

No one seems to die horribly as if suffering from a tragic accident or attack - so I guess that I have that not so bad thing going.... Real life tidbits show up memorably from last night that have me wondering about this poor person. I'm not responsible for what takes them away - but every time there's the sense that a conundrum besets me and the solution to save her is within me. I'm vexed again, and she's lost.
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I've got to do better - I've got to get something clearly right - I've got to sleep and wake with every one of us making it through the night....
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08 November 2009

Clouds Roll In


Saturday was near perfect in weather (breezy day and cool at night), company and thought - haha...; Thought a lot anyway....
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The clouds rolled into the Texas hill country early this morning and after a short while the sun was only peeking through them occasionally. Ah well... we needed some more rain anyway. It had been several days since the last downpour.
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I was happy to have the room to bring the fancier set-up stuff with parking near enough to the camp sites that there was little concern about bringing too much. So...it was kinda campy-posh with lots of cooking, chairs around the fire and even canoes for exploring the edges and inlets of the lake. Yes...that's a rug in my tent - haha...wasn't showing off, really. It just feels so good on your toes on a cool night (brought the propane heater, too...).
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I'd been thinking over the last several days that either something was missing, or I wasn't growing, or needed some thought change, or...I dunno...something better. Lazing about in the canoe and reading, thinking and reflecting on the happenings of the week was pretty darn good. Wish that each of you could have been there - maybe in another canoe nearby doing the same thing I was doing, or something else more your style.
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Met a few really nice people this time, too. A sibling of a classmate from Austin was maybe the best surprise meeting and conversation. Don't you just love meeting new folks and going deep right away - skip right by the chit-chat, where u from, what's your major...blah, blah? Good stuff and opportunity to roll some recent thoughts and advice right into the discussion. Kinda miss that during the week with everybody so focused on his/her own stuff and only 5 minutes to catch up. We ended up staying up pretty late, listening to music, dancing around the fire and watching the stars...some shooting on the clear night. The strange howling of coyotes in the distance had us moving into the tents shortly before sunrise - short "night".
So...we rolled up the tents and packed all of the stuff away this morning as had been planned and made our way back to Austin to get into some studying that was starting to nag me - I did get some philosophy reading in yesterday and that lightened my work to a meager 6 hour stint today :-P
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I've really been enjoying everyone's happy tweets and tales of the weekend that I took in on the short ride home :-). Y'all have really made me proud and the occasional mention of your girlfriend/boyfriend/spouse/hopeful-other made me grin each time...so keep that up!
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Monday...yup...it's almost here. Be good, y'all.


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07 November 2009

Some Time Alone

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This is a back water area where I've been reading alone for the last hour or so. The sounds, the fresh natural smells and the sighting wildlife, mainly fish and fowl, have me feeling extremely serene.
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A lot of guys might say this is just nasty in here, but I think it's wonderful....
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What do you do when your perspective is challenged? Both are easily true positions. What if you're questioned by someone you love? How easily do you go about explaining multiple perspectives of the same thing?
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03 November 2009

Slept Like a Baby


So when I woke from a really, really good sleep filled with wonderful dreams the Hunter's Moon was still out there - could've hunted all night, I suppose.

Up reading some news for the first time in a while - ugh... doesn't look like I missed much.  Happy to see the Phillies putting up a fight (NYY lead series 3-2).  Not really much of a Phillies fan, though, and just pulling for an underdog here.

Have a test again today, and I'm a little jittery about it - odd, because I'm almost over-studied.  Ok, okay... gonna do it.  It's been over 3 weeks since I ran, fully ran and need to do it.  That oughta knock the jitters clean out, too.  Okay... maybe I'll come back later and add to this post because there's not much here so far....

Back... might've done extremely well on the test.  Cannot think of a single thing missed and the post-test review had me wondering.

Trying to figure out whether or not my absentee ballot had any bearing on the un-dramatic outcome of 11 state constitutional amendments and a random school board district position.  There have been some good results in other places, though.  That should make for some good news reading in the morning, perhaps.

What an excellent day - Rare, indeed, from start to finish.  Prayers tonight may include a little something for another day like this one if I'm allowed to be so specific.  Thank you!

02 November 2009

Woo-hoo... It's a full moon tonight!


Stepped out of the library a short while ago and it was dark....  It capped an interesting day, I was thinking, that the full moon peeked in between the live oaks  and ash all around campus.  Not sure that I've been happier to see the fullness and brightness of the moon on Monday night.  Have you seen the moon tonight?  It's the same one that I just saw.  It wasn't like a normal Monday, and it was good!!  The sugariness in my body has been slowly dissipating and have been wondering if reality is soon to follow.  Maybe soon, but not today - not tonight!


You know how I feel?  Do you?  I feel like a puppy with her ears flapping and hair streaming in the wind as she points her nose forward - that's a pretty good feeling don't ya think?  How do you get that feeling?  It's simple things, right?  Just a very small amount of well-timed external stimuli, maybe....